Back to the Cleveland Clinic

I'm back down South in Weston, FL. I have my appointment with the oncologist tomorrow. I'm really stressed out. I'm exhausted from the ride down. My pain has kicked in double time. I'm nauseas and my head is pounding. I just want answers. I want the pain to stop. I want the feeling sick to go away.

Update 1/9/2014 Same old stuff

I had major chest, shoulder and arm pain last night. It made me nervous about driving home but I made it. The pain just seems to be getting worse. I'm tempted to ask my doctor for something to help control it but I'm afraid of just masking the symptoms. 

Today has brought more pain though not as intense. Heartburn medication does nothing for it. I'm 100% certain that it is not from my digestive tract.

Two more weeks until my appointment with the oncologist at the Cleveland Clinic. I just keep telling myself that I can make it until then.

Happy Saturday I think not

Back to being sick. I have been dealing with a sore throat for a few days. Mild fever, but not bad. My head is pounding though. It is actually pretty bad right now. The nausea has not gone away. I have no appetite and have been forcing myself to eat. I am still having low sugars because of it. My arm is a horrible pain right now and my chest is hurting.
I am feeling down. I wouldn't call it depressed, just down. I feel like this will never get better. I just want the pain to stop. I could deal with the nausea if I didn't have so much pain.
I am not looking forward to my next appointment but at the same time I am. I just want answers that will finally lead to a treatment or solution.

I just want to get better

So here I am on Monday night. The chest pain, arm and shoulder pain...same old same old. Some of the pains in my chest would have sent me to the emergency room if I hadn't already known that my heart is not the problem.
I have been very sick to my stomach for three days now. I am back to the diarrhea and vomiting. I have just about no appetite until I am absolutely starving and even then I have trouble eating.
I am so very tired of all of this. I just want to get better. I want to have a normal life.